Laying here is the empty house alone I just can’t stop but wonder if this is really what I should be doing. Is this really my life and who I am or can it be something else - should it be something else? Who really knows. All I know is something doesn’t feel right and I am going to find that something and destroy it, before it destroys me.

(Source: influencing-society)

Looking back on the past and wondering if I made the right decisions.

Anonymous asked: why did you and trent decide to move out?

There were a lot of problems that I don’t really want to put on the internet. But it was a joint decision we made to improve our relationship. Plus we love each other and wanted to live together on our own.

I honestly can’t believe this is happening. I can’t explain how nervous and scared I am. This could be the best or the worst thing for me. I guess I just have to take a chance and see where this takes me. Who knows what could happen.

I remember the days where everything was so easy and we didn’t face what we face now. When someone older would always do things for us and we weren’t independent. When late nights were a ritual and we didn’t have a care in the world because tomorrow we’d sleep in and do it all over again. I remember when our biggest worries were school work. I remember when one day you were friends and the next you weren’t, when boys were just something we had fun with and didn’t worry about the future with them. I remember when money was only for fun things like movies, alcohol, nights out, food and anything we thought would be interesting. Now it seems it’s bills, insurance, and maintenance. I don’t know where the time has gone and I don’t understand how I am where I am. How can one day change to the next so quickly. How am I so old yet I still feel so young? Where has my teenage life disappeared to?

(Source: fuckyeahhairlesscats)

There is a lot of things in life that are harder than you could imagine, but sometimes sticking by the one you love is the hardest. But that is the thing about love, no matter how hard it gets or what you have to over come - you do. Because when you love someone you would do anything in the world to make it work. True love doesn’t give up and true love waits, fights and gives everything it’s got for that one other person.

I already don’t have much self confidence and now you have just completed destroyed it and there is nothing left. Never felt so shit about myself.